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Surprises!

Some of the things that surprises you about grief are all the things that you remember.  You know you aren't supposed to ask why or question what has happened. You just know that this is your new reality. You move thru the minutes, hours and days and think wow I think I made a whole day and didn't cry and then you do. Your surprised that your still breathing, that some how your still moving thru all this. Somehow you actually didn't stop too.  Your surprised that for some reason you have not lost your mind or this does not consume you. But then you look around and wonder how is everyone else moving and functioning like the whole world hasn't tilted on it's axis. Clearly they can see it just as you do. Then you realize this is your pain your families pain. Then that's a whole other ball of mess no one wants to deal with.  People say with time this will get easier.....that's what they say.  Feel Free to comment and share with your friends! Feel Free to follow ...

Nobody Ever Tells You

Nobody ever tells you really how grief is. Not all the parts not the parts that have you waking up in the middle of the night from a dead sleep and crying because you have to remember all over again. Or when you are just trying to get dressed to go to work but you know you have to get this cry out now so you can face to world and lie thru your teeth. Everyone is going to ask, "How are you today?" and you can't say "I'm dying inside." You have been trained, conditioned to make everyone else feel better. No one every told you about the moments that you would forget for a split second that you can't pick up the phone and tell the person that's gone about your day. Or did they? Maybe they did I just didn't listen. I guess it doesn't matter now because I'm in the trenches. Don't get me wrong at my big age I have had loss before. My children's father passed away. We were married had five kids but somehow my grandmother hits so different...

Elice's Free Finds on Amazon

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Elice's Free Finds on Amazon Riding for a Liar   Kindle Edition Art is an ex-con turned business man with a wife who adores him. He still dabbles in life in the streets and has his down ass chick who helps to run his crew so that he can keep his nose clean. Life seems to be doing well, until it isn't. When Art and his adoring wife are put in a position that requires one of them to take the rap for something that neither of them saw coming, will their marriage survive? Erin grew up the daughter of a drug boss. She watched her mother hold her father down through everything. So, meeting and marrying a drug lord of her own wasn't a stretch. Taught by her mother to ride for her husband at all cost and despite his missteps with other women, she takes a case for her husband so that he doesn't have to go back to prison, expecting a slap on the wrist. When she learns that she has to do real time, will she continue to hold her husband down knowing what she does, or will she fold?...

Book Review: I Should Have Worn A Curtain: Book 1

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I Should Have Worn A Curtain : A Novella   Amazon Description:  I’m sitting on the bench at the foot of my bed, face buried in my hands, still feeling stuffed from yesterday’s binge. Guilty. Ashamed. After yet another night of binge eating, Shaena makes the tough decision to attend Overeaters Anonymous (OA). There’s more than just overeating, but she can’t even admit it to herself let alone anyone else. All she knows is that her life is out of control. On her way to her first meeting, she happens upon Mike, a hot personal trainer new in town who offers Shaena free training and asks her on a date. When she dedicates herself to his diet plan, the numbers on the scale drop. Mike is delighted and can’t keep his hands off her. But when her weight creeps up, Mike goes from strict to cruel. All he wants from her is his first Los Angeles weight loss success story, and he’s willing to do whatever it takes to make it happen. Shaena still hasn’t spoken up at OA meetings. Her relationship...

Book Review: Write Your Name by Courtney Irving

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Amazon Blurb:  Love doesn’t live here, but no lie, Sunny wishes it did. In her eyes, love is the beautiful rise of each day and the seduction of the night. Unfortunately, Sunny has had her heart broken one too many times to believe she’ll find her life-changing, soul-shaking romance. Outgoing, with a sweet disposition, don’t get her misunderstood. She’s got a backbone and enough self-awareness to know finding herself takes precedence over who finds her. When she meets Wisdom, however, love is back on the brain and gunning for her heart. Wisdom doesn’t believe in love. Luckily, he had never fallen. A boss in the streets, he’s known as the Plug, and his only loyalty is to the Crip set he claims. As a man of few words, Wisdom is no-nonsense and never afraid to take action. Still, a drunken night ends with him giving a ray of sunshine a ride home and sparking a connection that has him reconsidering his stance on love and deciding to do anything to keep Sunny’s heart intact. When lines ...

Book Review: Something Special by Tiffany Patterson

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Amazon Blurb:   Gabriella I can’t stand him. Jamal Holmes. My best friend’s cousin. So what he may be able to help me finally make the move to get my business off the ground. He’s a pompous jerk and judgmental to boot. At least, those are the very excuses I tell myself to avoid his help at all costs. Now, if I could just get my silly body to stop reacting every time he’s near. If I could manage to control my erotic thoughts whenever he opens his mouth or tosses one of those goofy grins my way, everything would be just fine. Only if he didn’t look so damn good in everything he puts on… Jamal I can’t stand her. Gabriella, Gabby for short. She’s brash, snarky and seems to have it out for me. A damn she-devil. I don’t give a damn how great her legs look in the tight jeans and leggings she wears. Or, how appealing her mid-section appears in the halter tops she frequently dons. Nor do I care that her smooth, brown skin always looks good enough to taste. She’s a pain in the ass. At least,...

Amazon Wishlist!

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