Elice Ivy Writes

Some of the things that surprises you about grief are all the things that you remember.  You know you aren't supposed to ask why or question what has happened. You just know that this is your new reality. You move thru the minutes, hours and days and think wow I think I made a whole day and didn't cry and then you do. Your surprised that your still breathing, that some how your still moving thru all this. Somehow you actually didn't stop too.  Your surprised that for some reason you have not lost your mind or this does not consume you. But then you look around and wonder how is everyone else moving and functioning like the whole world hasn't tilted on it's axis. Clearly they can see it just as you do. Then you realize this is your pain your families pain. Then that's a whole other ball of mess no one wants to deal with.  People say with time this will get easier.....that's what they say.  Feel Free to comment and share with your friends! Feel Free to follow ...

Nobody ever tells you really how grief is. Not all the parts not the parts that have you waking up in the middle of the night from a dead sleep and crying because you have to remember all over again. Or when you are just trying to get dressed to go to work but you know you have to get this cry out now so you can face to world and lie thru your teeth. Everyone is going to ask, "How are you today?" and you can't say "I'm dying inside." You have been trained, conditioned to make everyone else feel better. No one every told you about the moments that you would forget for a split second that you can't pick up the phone and tell the person that's gone about your day. Or did they? Maybe they did I just didn't listen. I guess it doesn't matter now because I'm in the trenches. Don't get me wrong at my big age I have had loss before. My children's father passed away. We were married had five kids but somehow my grandmother hits so different...